Sunday, January 27, 2013
Jill of all trades, mistress of none..or time flies on glossy black wings..
Today's anticipated project went no where fast due to the fact that I couldn't settle on what project I should actually do! I have so many irons in the fire that I can't figure which one to pull out when it's time.
There are just TOO many things that I want to do. Too many things I want to learn. Maybe I am feeling a bit frantic to crowd as much as possible in now, during the last years of my life.
Things that I always wanted to learn when I was a lot younger but could never take the time to do, or was never ALLOWED to do by one person or another.
I know I am only 56 which isn't really old, but it isn't really young either, and to me, it is almost too late.
So I try to do everything that I wanted to do in this game of life, and I mean EVERYTHING. Which usually means I start something and then don't finish it as I jump to the next thing.
At times I almost can't bear the excitement that fills me!
The burning need to CREATE using the things I have learned. During those times I feel so alive, so eager and confident!
I am also often frustrated as chores, errands or some problem demands my time and pulls me away from what I want to be doing...or like today...my own inability to settle on something.
Then it happens and I begin to fade and long for nothing more than my chair, a thick blanket and a book. Sometimes not even a book. I just long to sit for hours wrapped in a cocoon, doing nothing. Which is the feeling I am fighting now, at this moment in time.
Anyhow, enough of this drivel. This is not what I originally sat down to right. I came here, to this blog, to ask all of you who have known me for years your opinion.
I ask you, who know me best and have seen every form of art I have done, from that of many years ago, to the most recent, which type do YOU like the most? Which you would like to see me do more of, which do you think I do best?
I ask you this to help me clear my head and maybe to help me focus my energies on my most popular type of work. Hopefully, some of you will have a word or two to say! I'm not sure which would be worse, to have people say something along the lines of..none of it, give up the dream! Or to not comment at all!!
Honestly? I expect no comments...cause I only have like two readers to begin with..LOL so I guess I am just writing this out for that other side of me to see. You know, the half crazy one who rushes willy nilly from one thing to the next? Who knows, maybe it will cause her to calm down, take a deep breath and do what she loves the best.
Whatever that may be.....